Bin tere...

Bin tere kya jeena????????

Wishes!!!!!

Happy B'day to me!!! Happy B'day to me!!! Happy B'day dear Gulmohar!!! happy B'day to me!!!

It started in a very nice way... All nice things happened and my family made it a memorable one.....

Why?????

When people around you dont understand you, it really makes your heart feel heavy.... And for the fact that you would have spoken for their own good... But they make such hasty decisions and say something that it ends up ruining your love for them. Finally when they realise, they apologise but then its too late that it would have left a scar behind.

Yesterday the same thing happened in my office within my team. I spoke for her own good which she mistook due to the preconceived ideas she had within herself.... Finally i explained everything to her but still she was not ready to accept... Then i gave her all the time she needed to understand things... I left home and there was a message in my mobile from her... But then, in the mean time i had also decided not to say anything again.... I only wish it ends up here....

I forgave her but pray God give me the strength to forget things....

PHOOLON SE BAGIYA MEHEKTI RAHE,
SITARO SE DUNIYA MEHEKTI RAHE,
HUM RAHE NA RAHE RAB SE EK DUA HAI BUS.....
KISMAT AAPKI CHAMAKTI RAHE....

I really feel like....

He didn't like the curry
And he didn't like my cake.
He said my biscuits were too hard...
Not like his mother used to make.
I didn't prepare the coffee right
He didn't like the stew,
I didn't mend his socks
The way his mother used to do.
I pondered for an answer
I was looking for a clue.
Isn’t there anything I could do
To match his mothers shoe
Then I smiled as I saw light
One thing I could definitely do
I turned around and slapped him tight...

Like his mother used to!!!!!

At work after hols..

After 4 days of holidays... small correction 4 and 1/2 days holiday i dont feel like coming to office at all. :(((((((

So all these 4 days i was busy filling myself with whatever mom made and was glued to the tv watchign all channels as much as possible...:-) It was fun being at home. I wish i was at home.. Actually nobody is stopping me from being at home but then i know it is not at all possible by me.

I can manage for a week being at home but after then i would feel so bored and monotonous atleast that is what i think i would feel if i stay at home.

I now feel like just taking a break and go for a long drive... I only wish :-)

Phew!!! My pm has come and i have to rush.. Have to make a call to my onsite co-ordinator...
:-(((((

Babye bloggie... Catch you after some time..

A pleasant surprise...

I did not even think that i would meet my friend today.... I was busy studying and had a call...Just picked up the call, to find it to be one of my very good friends (one of the closest i should say).. I was so happy but was wondering what on earth had made him call at this time. usually we talk in the evening... He said he is very close to my office and he is coming there and he asked me to wait so that we would have lunch together...

Finally, he reached... He had not changed a bit. he looks the same although he claims to have put on some weight... And we had a nice chat over the lunch. Another friend of mine, from college also works in my office and so i had callled him also. So it was nice meeting both of them...

As we were talking we tried recollecting when we met last.... I said.." Convocation" He said " I did not attend the convocation"... hmmm then i remembered it was his mother and sister who attened on his behalf...

We could not recollect when we met last... now i think it should be not less than 2 years but still we kept in touch with each other somehow or the other... It was a very nice meeting....

We talked about our friends... and how life has changed... and how it would be over the years....:-)

I did not know how that 1 hours time flew... And finally i had to bid him bye...

So this meeting had made up my day!!!!!

You and Me!!! :-))))))))))))))))

Win or Lose, The choice is yours.

The other day, while surfing on the internet, I came across a wonderful story that puts in a nut-shell, the way we all live and the difference between the ones who choose to succeed and who choose to fail. Choose to fail! Many of us unknowingly choose to fail. Probably there can never be a better way to explain this than this story where a man explains this with his entire life.

Jerry is the manager of a restaurant in America. He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would always reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!" Many of the waiters at his restaurant quit their jobs when he changed jobs; they would follow him around from restaurant to restaurant. The reason the waiters followed Jerry was because of his attitude. He was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, Jerry was always there, telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.

Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up to Jerry and asked him, "I don't get it! No one can be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?" Jerry replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, I have two choices today. I can choose to be in a good mood or I can choose to be in a bad mood. I always choose to be in a good mood. Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it. I always choose to learn from it. Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I always choose the positive side of life."

"But it's not always that easy," I protested.

"Yes, it is," Jerry said, "Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people will affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. It's your choice how you live your life."

Several years later, I heard that Jerry accidentally did something you are never supposed to do in the restaurant business: he left the back door of his restaurant open one morning and was robbed by three armed men. While trying to open the safe, his hand, shaking from nervousness slipped off the combination. The robbers panicked and shot him. Luckily, Jerry was found quickly and rushed to the hospital. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, Jerry was released from the hospital with fragments of the bullets still in his body.

I saw Jerry about six months after the accident. When I asked him how he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Want to see my scars?"

I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone through his mind as the robbery took place. "The first thing that went through my mind was that I should have locked the back door," Jerry replied. "Then, after they shot me, as I lay on the floor, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or choose to die. I chose to live."

"Weren't you scared?" I asked.

Jerry continued, "The paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the Emergency Room and I saw the ex-pressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'He's a dead man.' I knew I needed to take action." "What did you do?" I asked. "Well, there was a big nurse shouting questions at me," said Jerry. "She asked if I was allergic to anything." 'Yes,' I replied. The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Bullets!' Over their laughter, I told them, 'I am choosing to live. Please operate on me as if I am alive, not dead'.

Jerry lived thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude. I learned from him that everyday you have the choice to either enjoy your life or to hate it. The only thing that is truly yours - that no one can control or take from you -- is your attitude, so if you can take care of that, everything else in life becomes much easier.

Invasion into the Kitchen....

I'm pretty satisfied with clearing all exam in my professional life but in kitchen if i take up a test in naming all the ingredients i think i will fail miserably. i was very happy clearing my certification but then that happiness was a little shaken because of my invasion into my kitchen as my parents ahd been out of station. So i had to visit the kitchen and i did not know what to do. Thanks to my mother for she taught me to make chapathis "saviour" for i lived on them for 3 days. I did not know which dhal to use for making sambar. Neither did i know how to make it but thats a different story... I really felt alarmed at my knowledge level in my kitchen. I did not know where things are kept. Had to keep searching for each ingredient. Then i realised that i'm in a very pathetic state so have decided to learn at least some basic cooking to manage for the time being. Yesterday i learnt the difference between the two main dhals used in cooking. Slowly i have to learn to cook.... Will soon mark my talent there too :-))))))))))

Today...

I had registered for the certification exam in taht is mandatory in our company for todays date... Initially i was very much determined that i ahve to clear it for not many cleraed it. But due to soem personal reasons i was not in a mood to concentrate and did not concentrate on the subject.. I had lots and lots of time but i found reasons to stay away from the course material for i knwo even if i keep it open in front of me i would be simply gazing at it and nothign is gonna register in my mind. So just left the idea of studying thoguh i wanted to do it... I did not knwo what had happened to me? I know the reason behind but then i could not overcome it and focus on the exam.

We are given only 3 chances and after that i cannot take up this particular exam and i have to take up soem other technology... I had few materials with me and thought.." Fine lets leave everythgin that happened aside and concentrate atleast for these two days before the exam"... but alas i had gone for shopping on Saturday and was very tired so dropped the idea of studyign for i was very lazy to connect tot he net and download the materials...

I decided to study on Sunday... But again i have grown up hearing my mother say this "Tomorrow never comes!!!" And it was very ture i did nto touch the material though i could have... And i slept and Sunday got over..

Got up somewhere around 5 and could hear my mom saying, " Get up and study atleats for 2 hrs before the exam.." And i the reply i gave her as i was ironing my clothes was" Can't finsih this subject in 2 hrs ma.... And i know whats gonna be the result!!!!"

Then somehow found some materials that i had in the printed format.. And so just browsed through for abotu 2 hrs. Thoguh did nto do it seriously it was enough for me to brush up what i had learnt earlier before this slack period... Went through all the notes that i had taken when i studied a little seriously for this exam...

It was 9.20 am and the exam was scheduled for 9.30 am... As i descended tot he ground floor i told my freind " Now i feel i shoudl have not wasted so much time..." She gave me a cold stare and said no point talking about it now...

Went inside the exam hall and wiht a few procedures done and the question paper was presented in front of me... This wa sthe ebst exam i ever had for there was no order of seating arrangement you can sit anywhere you want... So my friend and myself sat together but trust me no copying... I dont like that...

Then my friend finished the exam and she left and i had 5 minsutes to go... The system is that if you dont submit within the time at the end of the given time your paper gets submitted on its own and you will be evaluated for whatever you ahve written and will be given the marks immediately right there...

So i checked once more as i had 5 mins of time and i just scrolled up to see the time left for i did nto want it to close on its own... i had exactly 12 seconds to go.... scrolled down immediately and clicked the submit button..........

And my heart beat went faster .... It took some time to process my paper and finally... there i got my marks flashed on the screen.... I cleared!!!!!!!

I just could not believe it... I had cleared the exam..... I'm so happy!!!!!!

But i know i got the result for the efforts i had put earlier and not everything in life will you get it easy..... A lesson for today..... :-))))

But at the end of the day i'm happy that i cleared the exam.....

Mark your presence

One day i had a call from my CEO in my previous office and i went there. I ahve been there so many times but this time something special caught my attention. It was the lines in the calendar kept on his table. They read...

"Mark your presence wherever you go...."

I still follow it and try to leave a lasting impression ( good one of course) wherever i go and by whatever i do...

Perfection

Read this somewhere....

Behind every apparent flaw is a story,
which when known,
makes the picture
more perfect.....

The Onam festival....

I like the festival Onam for few reasons… The main reason being it is a festival of colours. Almost all houses have this pookolam done in front of their houses. And they would also keep a lamp which is called the “vilaku” and also small lamps made out of mud. It looks so beautiful. And there would be special food and my most favorite dish among the lot is the payasam.

I got a call from my friend who studied with me in college… He wished me “Happy Onam” I was laughing as usual, for lots of them think that I’m a malayali but I’m not…
Even in office on the Onam day, a group of girls were talking among themselves that they have to wish me for Onam…. :-) I was on the other side of the cubicle and couldn’t just stop laughing thinking “Oh my God!!! It continues even here???? “

As this was happening on the other side, I was taken back to my college days… It all started on the Onam day!!! It was my second year in college. We were all new to each other for the first year we were in a class which was like a mixed bag with students from all departments and only in the second year you will be seated along with your stream…
And we were new to each other and there wasn’t much of an interaction amongst us. And we had our department function called “CYGNUS” being held and it also happened to be Onam on that day.

It is an unsaid or unframed rule that “Guys are supposed to be in their formals and girls clad in sari” And so I was in a sari on that day and I, till date haven not figured out the reason why I was chosen to be a malayali when almost all the girls in the department were in sari. And everybody in my class was asking for a treat. I gave them a treat but then they spread the news that I gave treat as it was Onam and I celebrate Onam. J Very funny.. Till date I get calls from friends in college wishing me for Onam. I’m tired of saying that I’m not one and so I have stopped saying that and only say “Thank you!!!” :-)

I sat thinking why they wish me so and somehow tried getting a reason which I think should be true for I always have one or two malyali friends around me and I do manage to talk Malayalam with them. So maybe this the reason why they have branded me to be a “Malayali”

My weakness....:-)

I love them.... They are my weakness... I love the sound they make. i have bangles to match almost all the dresses i have... I love to wear bangles especially when i wear saree...:-)

Work beckons....

Got a call from my DM (Delivery Manager). Will be put into a project soon. :)
My bench life will come to end soon.........

SHELTER...

Dooram...

Anbu nenjangal arukil irunthalenna,
tholaivil irunthalenna?
Tholaiyatha ninaivugal ullavarai
tholaivum vegu arugil than....

Kasam Ki Kasam....

One of my favorites.......

Kasam Ki Kasam Hai Kasam Se
Humko Pyaar Hai Sirf Tumse
Kasam Ki Kasam Hai Kasam Se
Humko Pyaar Hai Sirf Tumse
Ab Yeh Pyaar Na Hoga Phir Humse

Log Kehte Hai Paagal Hoon Main Yeh Bhi Na Jaanu
Dil Lutaya Hai Maine Ab Kisi Ki Na Maanu
Chain Dekar Ke Maine Bechainiya Yeh Li Hai
Neende Udakar Ke Maine Tumse Wafaye Ki Hai
Kasam Ki Kasam Hai Kasam Se
Jee Rahe The Hum Tere Dum Se
Ab Yeh Pyaar Na Hoga Phir Humse
Kasam Ki Kasam Hai Kasam Se
Humko Pyaar Hai Sirf Tumse

Kuch Ishaaron Mein Tumne Humse Jo Yeh Kahan Hai
Ab Yakin Aa Raha Hai Tumko Bhi Kuch Hua Hai
Kyon Tumko Dekhte Hain Kya Dil Mein Sochte Hai
Toofan Jo Uth Raha Hai Hum Usko Rokte Hai
Kasam Ki Kasam Hai Kasam Se
Yeh Milan Hai Sanam Ka Sanam Se
Ab Yeh Pyaar Na Hoga Phir Humse

Reasons....

Not million but even more than that.......

Missing You

Last night in my thoughts
an image of you in shimmering light
My tears glistened in reflection
brought forth by the ache in my heart
Oh the trembling in my soul
craving the gentleness of your touch
The bitter chill of emptiness
thirsting the warmth of your smile
In anguish, I close my eyes awaiting the angels of sleep
The pain of your absence gone
for in my dreams we walk together
Just as it should be....

Came across this beautiful poem somewhere.... I cant write such nice poems

unakaga irupen...

un uyiril
un manathil
un unarvil
un moochil
un kanavil
un ninaivil
un anbil
yaar vendumanalum irukalam
anaal....
yaarum ilatha pothum
naan unakaga irupen....

Pluto is no more a planet....

For almost seven decades, we were taught that there are nine planets and Pluto was the ninth planet and was the farthest from the sun..... But in todays paper there is a news that Pluto is no more a planet. And this has been decided by the International Astronomical Union (IAU). The reason being...." Its tiny size and highly eccentric orbit precludes it from joining other planets"...

So from now on there is only eight planets which belong to the 'Planets' family.

Mistaken.....

Smile is mistaken for happiness
A smile can be the mask of sorrow.
Tear is mistaken for sadness
A tear can be the unseen hint of joy.
Silence is mistaken for handicapped answers
Silence can be the answer, hailing infinite questions
'Yes' is mistaken for willingness
A yes can be a humble way of saying a 'No'
Absence is mistaken for ignorance
Absence can be the childish trick, to grab importance
Care is mistaken for love
Care can soothe, but not always understand, a heart
And when Love is mistaken for care
Mistake is mistaken for Acceptance!!

Solitude

The Mysore Palace

This is Mysore palace from the Chamundi hills.... I liked both the places...the Mysore Palace as well as the Chamundi hills....

The workmanship of the Mysore palace is just extrodinary... The carvings and huge durbar, the ivory doors... When you see them you can visualise how the kings woiuld have lived their lives...

When i see this picture I remember my stay in Mysore for about 5 months.... Those were some of the happiest momnets in my life....

I wrote your name.....

Came across this very beautiful lines, so thought of putting it here in my blog....

I wrote your name on the clouds,
The wind blew them away.
I wrote your name on the sand,
The waves washed them away,
Now I wrote your name in my heart
So there, forever you will stay!!

Piyu Bole...

Now listening to this song Piyu bole... which is one of my favourite songs... I love this song for so many reasons...
1. For the voice...( i just melt hearing sonu's and goshal's voice)
2. For the music...
3. For the picturisation...
4. For the lyrics...
5. For it also reminds of so many things which had been associated to this song :-)

can keep listing so many reasons... This song just fills happiness within me... Just a romantic song..( i also like all the other songs in this movie parineeta) i would never get tired of hearing this song....

Piyu bole piya bole kya yeh bole jaanu na...
jiya dole jiya dole kyun yeh dole jaanu na....

Today i was asked to shift my place to another cabin which i did not like but still had to do... Initially, the place which i was occupying had ony 3 of them in that cabin but still i felt comfortable but now the place i'm seated, the cabin is completely occupied but still i feel isolated and feel that i dont belong here. My friend calls it transition... whatever be it i just wanna this feeling to fade away very soon so that i get some mental peace........

If I could
I would
But I can’t
So I won’t

The past....

Past is like a broken mirror, if you try to put back the pieces, you will cut yourself.

Lesson for today!!!!

Something happened today... and from that i learnt a lesson that whatever is predetermined will happen eventually.... Have wriiten about this many times...but still i'm reminded of this lesson with all that happens every now and then.....

Life is no bed of roses

Life isnt a bed of roses...

You will also encounter thorns... Life is a mixture of both happiness and sorrow. Otherwise we dont realise the value of happiness. Only then life is complete. A perfect example would be "When we inhale, oxygen goes inside and we exhale carbondioxide". Only this composition keeps our life going otherwise we would not exist.

Similarly both happiness and sorrow makes life going.......

Quote

We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, its a habit.
- Aristotle

I thank God

I thank God for all that i'm blessed with....

Today, i was waiting in the station for my train in the morning and there came a train to the opposite direction. And in few minutes the platform was full with people moving around and i could notice many of them walking even without footwear. They walk like that everyday in mud, stones..... And i thought about the hardship they lead and also ablout how blessed i'm for i dont walk bare foot even inside my house.

I really felt very sorry for them. Let there be a time when even they enjoy all pleasures and luxuries in life.

Not only footwear, but many of them dont even have the basic amenities and thousands of them without jobs and what not... While one section of the people suffer like this for every square of meal the other side keeps growing richer and richer and also turn miser.... They keep plannign for world tours, parties...get togethers, birthday parties and lavish weddings... what not??????

Why this discrimination?????????

I thank God for whatever i'm blessed with...... :-)

A lesson learnt...

Learnt a valuable lesson yesterday in the hard way....

Never to forget whatever happened in your life. For that, will help you not to repeat the same mistake again.

Always remember the past, but dont cling to it, keep moving forward.....

My parents 25th anniversary party went on well as planned.... Though had to slog, it was all fun doing it.... They were really very happy.....

Learn to say NO!!!!!!!!

Today i wanted to do something useful and so started to go through some e learning materials.Wherein i came across a beautiful concept which is stated below.

Learning to say "NO" is not negativism. It actually frees you to say "YES" to the matter that actually matters.

What a powerful statement?????

We generally tend to be submissive or accept everything because we like to please everybody and tend to do everything despite of the fact that we really dont wish to do it.We overburden ourselevs and also dont have enthusiasm in doing it, for we started to do it for others. As a result, end up messing up things, put ourselevs into immense stress andend up the relationship for which we started doing all these.

Whats wrong in saying a NO when you really dont want to do it. Fine, we need not be aggressive in turning down but still we can be polite in refusing or denying, which i would suggest is far better than messing up things.

Saying NO doesnt create an image that we turn down everything or also that we are adamant or a person with too much head weight. Its in the way how we tell them. We need to give priority toour work too.

And with the same idea running in my mind during lunch came back and started writing the same in board near me. I did not notice that someone was standing behind me. I just sat after writing andwas startled hearing the voice behind me. It was one of the PM's in my dept.From his talk on this topic i realised he also ahd the same idea in his mind. It was nice talking to him about this.This was the first time i have spoken to him. A nice ice breaker though...:-)

Now can you see???????

I never get to tell you what I really need to say
How I long to hold you each and every day
You mean more to me than words can ever express
Without you my life would be a total mess
As I look into your eyes, and at your perfect face
I know there will never be anyone to take your place
No matter what problems we may go through
That place in my heart will always be for you
If I am having a hard time letting you in
It's because I have played the game, and never win
Your love means so much to me
I just don't know how to make you see
I don't care what people say
We can stick together anyway
When they come to me, all I see is your face
When they start to speak your voice takes their place
It's a voice that promises to always be there
No matter what they say, I know you still care
Always and Forever is what this means to me
I LOVE YOU, now can you see?

~by Erica Bowen~

A Feat!!!

Its not 1 or 2 years but its 25 years today since my parents got married..... :-) They started with nothing and now have everything.... They have undergone so many hardships to reach the level they are in, now.... They have given us all happiness and have given us everything that we need...

TOUCHWOOD ...:-)

May God bless them with all his choicest blessings and fill their lives with all happiness. May they celebrate many more anniversaries....:-)

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY DAD & MOM !!!!!!!!!!!

The Monk who sold his Ferrari

Heard this is a very nice book... So when i went to my library i just borrowed the book and started to read it with great enthusisam.... But as i proceeded through the pages i dont know what happened to me I was not able to proceed any further... My mind does not agree with reading it any further... I have totally lost the enthusiam in reading that book... I dont know why??? Mebbe 'coz the time has not come for me to read the book... or mebbe my mind is not all that matured to take these ideas or appreciate its value ?????

But still there is 1 question that lies in my mind.... When you read these things and try implementing them in our lives dont we lose our individuality?????? We wont be ourselves... I accept that these ideas explained in these books bring all nice effects into our lives but still????? We can try to change ourselves better by implementing few things which badly needs to be changed in us...

When we read the book we feel like "Yes we have to follow all this in our day to day life.. From today onwards i will implement all this in my life" But we do that for a few days but dont follow it all through our lives there after... How many people live like that after reading the book????? A handfull mebbe... And mebbe there lies the challengs which differentiates peoples' will power.....

Anyway as long as the book does something nice its worth reading any book....

Misinterpretation can take place at any time any where...

Yesterday was talking to my father and he misinterpreted what i said... When people can misunderstand what we talk to them directly why will not there be a misinterpretation when we communicate through mails or so... There are various aspects that goes into an effective communication... The situation in which we talk, the tone , and various other things...

How many times my freind and myself have ended up in a fight due to this misunderstanding... (Of course those fights dont last for more than a minute... BUt still...) I feel it is always better to tell things that are really personal, directly or in unavoidable situation atleast over the phone... NOw i feel maybe we could have avoided all those unwanted fights of we were talking directly in person....:-) Anyways everything is a lesson....

Reason...

LOVE ME FOR A REASON..... LET THE REASON BE LOVE.....

A new Me!!!!

All geared up!!!

This year its going to be my parent's 25th wedding anniversary... And i have planned to celebrate it big...This is the first function i'm heading... So all the preperations are going on... The fever has started by shopping for my mom and also a few things for the house last saturday and on Sunday everything in my house was rearranged... My GOd what lot of work we had to do... So much of man work was to be put in.. Not an easy joke to maintain the house....

Next week we will have to start with somethign else and finish all arrangements in the coming 2 weeks....

I pray everything goes well....

Signs of life....

Everyday there are a lot of signs that life keeps showing us.... But its we who dont interpret them and act accordingly.... But if we do then the thrill of life is lost... Everything will seem to be perfect and there would be no meaning for happiness... We realise and feel happiness only when we know what a failure is ... what sorrow is.... Life gifts both happiness and sorrow... By chance when we interpret the signs properly without actually knowing them thats what we call luck and there is happiness and when we interpret them wrong and when failures occur then we are sad.... But still leaving the natures law how to interpret the signs which will avoid some very sad happenings which is gonna be there within us till the end in the corner of our heart... Why do things which are not going to last forever happen at all in the first place?????? Does it happen to teach us a lesson that we dont do it again???? or is it because its destined that it should happen????? Life is generous to give us so many signs everyday its we who have to interpret them correctly and be happy... Mebbe we learn to interpret them as we grow older..... Is it because of this that we say " We learn from our experience".....?????

Deeper than the Ocean....

We all know that the ocean is very deep and deeper than that can be a humans mind..soul..whatever.... Even if we have to find the depth fo the ocean we can find it out though there are lots of constraints but still its not impossible.... But finding out how deep a mna thinks is something next to impossible.... We might seem to be thinking of something but deep inside we might be thinking of something else.. mebbe it is somehting we wish for or mebbe we are missing somebody... it can be anything.... Its seems to be a very very deep abyss... and at the bottom of it ( we dont know how deep) we have something hidden which might be very special to us and nobody other than us knows about it.... There lies a lot of secrets within all of us... As long as they are not harmful to others as well as us its ok....

Now isnt it true that a human mind is much more deeper than the ocean...

As i'm writing this i remember a shayari ...

Sagar se bhi geheri hai thanhayian...
Raat se bhi kaali humke parchaayian...
doonduthey hum thume koi na jaane de..
tum kahan...... tum kahan......
tum ho kahan....

Ride on the bike...

It was Saturday morning and I had planned to go my previous employer to collect my papers... The actual plan was to go with my friend but as he was busy couldnt make up... So he was to be substituted by my brother (younger) which indeed turned out to be my best outing in my life.... So we had planned to go by train... Then my bro suggested to go by bike...

I screamed BIKE?????? Are you crazy????? For i was not very sure how our trip will be 'coz i ( infact both of us ) have never gone out in the bike so far....

Then my father supported him saying "If not now then when??? " I told him that we did not the routes either.... ( for i alwasy travelled by train )...Then he sat down drawing the routes...

FInally we were all set to go... And we left home in the bike.... We followed the map my father had drawn... It was my responsibility to tell my bro when to turn and how to go using the map... What an adventure..???????

Then we reached the place without much difficulty... As i knew few places in and around my ex- office we went around and finally landed up in my aunts house near by... Had lunch there and it was fun spending the time there with my cousins.. We spent the whole afternoon making fun of each other.... The clock struck 5 and it was time for us to leave....

We had made more than 100 kms by bike when we finally landed up home.....

We hit the bed soon as we were soooo tired....

And the Saturday came to an end......

I move on....

Men may come and men may go but i move on forever......
- Alfred Lord Tennyson
This is one of my favourite lines... Many people come into our lives at different point of times... Some come into for a smaller duartion of time and some for ever... They teach us so many things.. and we also learn so many untold things... We learn to cherish the value of relationships....

Some of them create such an impact that they cannot be forgotten all through our life irrespective of the duration they stay with us.... They live in our memories.... For some reason or the other there arises a situation where they have to move away physically or mentally.... it creates a sadness throughout... But that should not hold us back....We should be able to come over that emotional bondage... Men may come and men may go but we have to move on...

Easy to preach but is it possible????????? Mebbe time will heal......

A beautiful sunset....

This food court was the one where i go by default when i was in Mysore... I experienced many beautiful moments here which i would cherish throughtout my life... Many incidents which will make me laugh to death.... The fruit juice shop which i would visit everyday without fail to order a pista icecream shake... or a chiku milk shake... The DJ nights which we had here... I still cant forget the masala dosa.. plain dosa.. kara bath.. biriyani... and ofcourse the golkonda food and maggi noodles from sukh sagar....:-) My God looks like a menu board now.....[:p]

Thanks to the one who had taken this picture, for i would be reminded of all the moments i spent here whenever i see this picture..... :-)

Thanks dude!!!!!!

Medical camps in my office...

I really envy doctors... and all those who are pursuing their studies and are the future docs... It was my dream proffession ....which would remain to be a dream through out my life....

Today i had attened a Bone density check up camp followed by which i attened a seminar on Osteoporosis and then on Cancer..... It was really an eye opener.... The seminar threw light on many dark areas... It is a very nice initiatives by the HR of my company to conduct such programmes where the software engg hardly have time out of their schedules for such things....

What a noble and a life saving proffession????? Hats off to them......

You get what you are destined for....

Off late this is the idea that prevails in my mind... And there were so many incidents which i experienced which reflects the same idea...

Last Saturday i had gone to my aunts house... My cousin, my mom and myself planned to go for shopping... ANd we had gone into so many shops to buy some dress material and i did not like any... Then finally we gave up the idea of buying the dress material and postponed the idea to next month but all of a sudden we went to a small marwari shop where i liked 3 sets of the same kind so i had to choose 1 among the three.... a beige colour, a bottle green one and a brown one... Meanwhile my aunt also joined us.. After a big struggle finalised on the beige color...paid the shop keeper and all the four marched towards the tailor's shop... which was just 5 shops away...

As i crossed the third shop saw that even that marwari had some nice collection and so went in... And liked a beige color material, and a purple and pink comniation material... As i had a beige material already i hesitated to buy this one... But it was so pretty that i did not want to leave it behind... So i went back to the first shop and told him that i'll take the bottle green one for which he accepted too.... So i bought the beige and the purple one in the second shop...

And now my cousin liked it and she said she will take the beige coloured dress from the first shop and she bought it too.. And she said "It was destined to be mine ..:-)"

Though i liked it, i decided to buy it then finally bought it and left the shop... it was not to be mine and thoguh i left the green one behind it was destined to be mine and it came back to me.... So you get what you are destined to... No matter you leave it behind it will come to you..... :-)

My last day in Mysore!!!

This is my last day in Mysore...

Chennai!!!

Finally i will be in Chennai next week... :-) Gonna be at home after 5 months.. :) Its gonna be a lovely feeling... :-)

Hurray!!!!!

Finally my Training has got over.... The review went on very well.... And now i can sleep peacefully tonight...with no worries... Oh!! what about the postings??????

Hurray!!!!!

I GOT AN 'A' GRADE....

I'm sooooooo happy!!!!

Mysore....

Pray this is the last week of my stay in Mysore.... Wanna get back home... :) As soon as possible...

Today is my friends b'day... This is the first time he will be celebrating his b'day alone... without us... Else usually it will be a big get together in his house...

Happy B'day da raghu...

Pics of yesterday's hailstorm

Some pics taken yesterday during the hailstorm in Mysore Infy DC

Hail Storm!!!!!

Never have i experienced hailstrom before... this is the first time in my life and that too during summer... Hailstorm in Mysore... unbelieveable....

I was busy working on my project and all of a sudden there was a lot of noise... ppl calling their friends to come out.. Did not know what but still went out to have a look... And to my amazement saw it raining so heavily and i could see ice all over... We were busy running about picking them up before it could melt.. :-) For we did not know whether you would get another chance like this....

The lawn looked so beautiful with ice scattered her and there...

What a beautiful sight it was... The whole of Infy Mysore looked so stunning.... :-)

Coloured....

This poem was nominated for the best poem of 2005 written by an African kid....

When i was born, i black...
When i grow up, i black...
When i go under the sun, i black...
When i scared, i black...
When i sick, i black...
And when i die, i still black.

And u whilte fellow...
When you born, u pink...
When u grow up, u white...
When u go under sun,u red...
When u cold, u blue...
When u scared, u yellow...
When u sick, u green...
And when u die, u gray...

And u calling me coloured???.....

Finally....

My classes are over... Pray my exam... my practicals and a project to be submitted goes well.... and i'm out of this place....

A bad day!!!!!

Today i had to submit my project for this module... Everything was fine till afternoon.. but dont know what happened at the eleventh hour... problems cropped up from all spheres.... and finally we had to give the same project...God knows what is going to happen....

Wish everything goes well.. keeping my fingers crossed...

It was a bad day indeed!!!!!

100th Day

Yesterday was my 100th day after coming here. And this is the first time i have been away from home for such a long time..

I have been studying continously day night for the past 3 months... And now with only 1 week for the main exam, i dont feel like studying.. i feel so lost... i have reached the saturation point...

With only 1 week to go how can i be like this... Have to do something about this....

A very strange dream..

I was sitting in that cozy sofa which i like the most.. Mom was sitting in front.. And we were talking about something (which i dont recollect) Grandpa calls me.. "Doll..." I respond.." Yes Grandpa..." and he asks me "Give me some coffee baby".. I immediately got up top bring coffee...

But all of a sudden i realised that i'm in a new place and not in my kitchen at home.. It took some time to realise that i'm not at home and also that my Grandpa lives in our hearts... Its gonna be 1 year since he passed awasy but this is teh first time i'm have seen him in my dream..

What does this dream convey to me?????

There is exactly 1 month to go for my trainign to complete.. then i'm out of this place...
2006 has brought in a lot of changes in my life... Good as well as bad... but it has been a learnign experience throughout.. realised the worth of relationships...

Have met a lot of people.. (have no count) of different shades... Have taken this as chance to learn a lot things... How to be and how not to be...

Understood the worth of home cooked food... Longing for it actually..:-) hehehe

Jus waiting for my trainign to get over..

And today is my classmate's wedding.. And i'm here...:( remebering a lot of things which happened in college....

May god bless her with all good things in life....

My Java Programming test went on well... But still i'm worried abt my project marks...

Its 3 days since i slept... :(((( Tried so much not to sleep in the class but was so damn tired that i dozed off for 15 mins..:)

Life is really hectic... but cant complain as its interesting....

But wanna come back to Chennai soon.. Missing Chennai..:(

I'm so happy!!!!

Its 2 months since i came to Mysore... Its long time since i have seen papa, mama and chotu... They are coming to see me tomorrow... i'm so happy....

The feeling of being together is jus awesome. Wish i meet my friend also one day.... Its nearly 1 and 1/2 years since i saw him... :((((((

Wish i see him soon....

Stupid Net Connection

The net access is so bad that it gets disconnected every now and then. I sat down writing for almost half an hour and now i lost all the contents due to this damn net connection making me go wild......

After a long time

hmm... i'm here writing this post after a very long time of nearly 2 months.... Was very busy with work..

Stayign away from home makes me understand how much i love papa, mama and chotu... There cant be anythign worse than living alone but inspite of all that.. apart from missing home life here is cool..

I have made some good friends. You really dont know when somebody becomes very close to me. Never did i think that i would get a nice friend like Lavana..( Lavanavarjit, this idiot is my junior in college... and my only friend whom i knew earlier, here in the campus) a very sweet guy but always makes fun of me. Never misses a chance. I dont even get a chance to reply back. Always ready with a sleeve full of jokes to pull my leg....

BUt today is the last day he will be here in the campus.. He is posted to a different place. Will definetly miss this sweet junior of mine. :( But it was so nice that he was here ont hed ay of my compre...

Talking abt compre reminds me of something.. My life here is scheduled with loads and loads of tests.. MY GOD!!!! how many more to go?????

At times i miss home so much that i feel like running away from here. .. Wish i get posted to chennai... wanna be back at home soon.

But papa, mama and chotu are coming here this weekend. I'm so happy abt it. its a real long time since i seen them..

Wish friday comes soon. :)

I liked this...

My last day here in office!!!

This is my last day in office.. Its been 20 months and 19 days since i joined work... And today being the last day felt like i shall write a little about my stay here...

This job gave me the happiness of getting my first salary in life... How i used up that money to buy gifts for everybody at home... And i made lots of friends in office also in the train... Got back old friends whom i met in school.. i still rememeber those friday parties which we used to have and all those fun which i had with Nithya... We were a group of 7 and out of which only i'm here and from today no one of that group will be here..

How we used to sleep during my CMM training classes.. How we got grilled with all those assignments and stuffs...

I enjoyed all those outings .. and all those team lunches... It was fun being here...

I learnt a lot of things on the personal as well as the professional front.. I learnt to face challenges... built a lot of self confidence... Became very strong from within... Best thing is i learnt to travel alone..hehehe.. Also i got familiar with the routes atleast the ones i frequenly ply on... After coming here i gained lots and lots of friends and one spl friend in particular about whom i have already mentioned....

I started to write my blogs sitting in this place... and this might be my last blog i'm posting from here...:-)